one of my favorite things to draw is myself


warning: this page will contain some material with more adult sensibilities. i like to get edgy 'n' shit i'm kinda crazy ahah.


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ben drooling and angrily wiggling a large fork into a person's eye socket. the person is saying: 'hm... this tab seems a little sparse! i'm going to... decorate it! if i add some chords that work with the melody, it doesn't matter that they don't actually appear in the song, is what i figure!' august 8 2025 i like making tabs on the website hooktheory's theorytab database, but whenever i look at someone's tab for something, i'll invariably find at least one thing wrong with it. sometimes a tab makes me really angry, the kind of angry that can't be caused by just anything.
the ogre from that ogre comic looking over their shoulder at ben, who's saying snippily: 'wow, get over yourself. you read a book. that's more than i can say. did you like the book? did you enjoy reading it? if you did, then you're literally just making up problems to beat yourself up about.' june 12 2025 my take on that ogre comic on tumblr. i'd seen it multiple times before, but i drew this after seeing people respond with "it's okay that you don't understand the themes, ogre. it shouldn't be expected of a dilettante such as yourself." and i was like "wtf."
a conversation between someone off screen and ben, who has a sword lodged in his right eye. the person says: 'what does two plus two equal?' ben says: 'i don't know.' the person says: 'what did you do one hour ago?' ben says: 'i don't know.' the person says: 'is there anything you need help right now?' ben says: 'no.'. november 21 2024 i'm really bad at remembering things during conversation and at talking to people in general. i think the most frustrating facet of this is when i need help with something and i forget / decide that i've missed my chance to ask.
a person is talking to someone off screen, and says: 'i love homestuck!' ben takes a picture of the person from behind them with a digital camera and thinks 'what an idiot.' to himself. september 14 2024 yeah, i do that sometimes... bad habit of mine. (on the internet, mind you, i'm not snapping photos of people i eavesdrop on in real life lol)
a speech bubble from someone off screen says: 'hey, ben, it's me, your dream partner. i'm everything you want in a lover. wanna, like, hang out or something?' ben is not paying attention, and is searching on his phone: 'is it illegal to point laser pointer into space pennsylvania law 2024'. august 13 2024
a censored head says to an emaciated, nude ben: 'yes, we are real. all of us. we have eyes and mouths and we breathe, just like you.' ben says, 'oh.' the head says, 'what did you think?' ben says, 'i don't know.' the censor bar over the head says in small text: 'je ne veux pas contrarier la personne que j'ai dessiné ici. si j'etais le destinaire de ce dessin, je ne pense pas que je voudrais y être.' the censor bar over ben's crotch says: 'pas d'accès jusqu'à ce que je décode ce message'. july 18 2024 i do one of these drawings where i have sunken scribbly eyes every so often when i get particularly upset.
a two-panel comic. in the first panel, ben's mom looks over ben's shoulder, confused. ben stares ahead, stonefaced. the second panel shows ben's 'recent transactions'. the first one is to 'harveytehpubby' for 500 dollars, with the attached note: 'hi, harvey. i hope you find the rest of your leg. best wishes'. the second one is to 'littlestpetshopfan920' for 40 dollars, with the attached note: 'for commission'. june 26 2024 this hasn't happened. yet.
a sensation on ben's eyebrow says to ben: 'hey, ben? there's some hair on your brow. can you move it to the side or something? it's annoying you.' ben angrily responds: 'that is my eyebrow. that is supposed to be there.'. june 10 2024 i seriously don't know why this even occurs.
three frowning people watch ben happily sing the first verse of 'last i heard (...he was circling the drain)' by thom yorke. may 10 2024 do not let ben sing karaoke, he'll pick the most boring ass emo song possible
ben, with a dull expression, folds his arms and stares at a snake in a small plastic enclosure, ignoring the person standing behind the container. april 19 2024 caption: "i went to an event where they had some animals that they saved. i went there, looked like this, and then left."
ben's mom folds her arms and says to ben: 'and how exactly would you get money as an independent artist?'. ben, slouching and not paying attention, is listening to 'you're the one' by the black keys in his head. april 16 2024 i mentioned to my parents that ideally i would be an "independent artist". they both laughed at me, and my mom helpfully informed me that that would not be financially viable.
ben in front of a board that originally said: 'laziness: the inability to complete cumbersome tasks due to idiocy or a lack of work ethic', but ben erased it with white out and wrote 'executive dysfunction!' with red pen. march 27 2024 i have a habit of ignoring my various brainial misstructures, explaining them away as laziness or foolishness. "ben learned a fancy new word! and now he's gonna apply it to himself as if he's some sort of mentally ill! what a stupid neurotypical!"
a mormon holding a bible chases ben. he says: 'convert!' and ben runs away screaming. a 'dramatization' disclaimer is at the bottom of the drawing. march 25 2024 i drew this after having a bizarre conversation with a mormon who was trying to convert me. he ambushed me as i was heading to my dorm.
a two-panel comic. in the first comic, ben is at a laptop and says: 'i'm gonna check my grades'. in the second panel, the background is obscured by squiggles, and ben's eyes and mouth are wider and more scribbly. december 13 2023 i'm just generally proud of this one.
ben, on the ground with three sharp objects embedded in his back, looks up and waves happily, and says: 'holy shit it's the sun from the genius of love music video hi'. the sun from the genius of love music video says: 'hi ben'. december 7 2023
a two-panel comic. in the first panel, ben stares wide-eyed into the distance. in the second panel, ben, viewed from farther away, yells: 'look at me!'. july 15 2023 this happens to me every night when it's 10 pm and none of my buddies are online.
a two-panel comic. in the first panel, a young girl with twin pigtails wearing a 'my little pony' shirt says: 'dni racists, nazis, toxic ppl, bigots, transphobes, pedophiles, manipulative ppl, proshippers, etc.' in the second panel, a nazi using the computer surrounded by nazi posters and paraphernalia thinks 'drat.' to himself. july 13 2023 my mom walked by as i was drawing the nazi and asked me who i was drawing.
a gmail screenshot of an email sent 'to me' that says: 'this is what a hand would look like is every finger was a pinky toe'. the attached image is as described. may 4 2023 this is to demonstrate that i'm actually fucked up. like, not in a "ha ha silly oooooh i'm so chaotic" kind of bullshit way. i am seriously fucked in the head, to the highest possible degree. my handle on something resembling sanity is dangerously weak.
a person throwing their hands in the air shouts at ben: 'what are you going to do with your life?!' ben, playing with a toy truck, responds: 'idfk lmao'. c. early 2023 drawn in google canvas. i drew on google canvas at school a lot.
a fat guy with sunglasses, wearing a metallica shirt that says 'milk' instead of 'metallica', saying to ben, who's covering his ears: 'you do cover your ears when it is loud noises? what matter, your vagina?'. march 29 2022
a four-panel comic. in the first panel, a baby says 'respect my opinion' to ben. in the second panel, ben says 'ha! are you kidding?! i'm older than you!' in the third panel, the baby, now an older person, says, 'no you're not. i'm 19.' in the final panel, ben looks at him with dilated eyes and says 'right away, sir!'. march 9 2022 i've had a really bad problem with this for effectively my entire life.
ben grabbing a table, foaming at the mouth, and squirting blood out of his eyes, looking at a person holding up a weirdcore image that says 'geometry dash lite'. january 27 2022 i had little patience for self-serious "weirdcore" edits. i do not miss them.


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