You'll never work a day in your life

amount of swear words: 1
longest word: "interruptions" (dinosaur), "kristallnacht" (seted ducs in row)
slowest song: "silly" (probably slower than dinosaur)
fastest song: "the only irish thing about me" (177 bpm)
longest song: "silly" (05:16)
shortest song: "my mom turned into a tree" (00:32)
least words: 33 (my mom turned into a tree)
most words: 248 (seted ducs in row)
highest note hit: F5 (silly)
lowest note hit:
instruments used: keyboards (1 3 4 5 8 9 10 11 13), drums (1 7), organ (1), guitar (1 9), electric piano (1 12), programming (3 4 11), piano (2 6), egg shaker (7), tambourine (12)

key: f minor
tempo: 78 bpm
recorded: 1-08-2025 - 6-20-2025
good word: locale

there’s people talking here, we should
find a different locale, i want
no interruptions or unwelcome looks
'cause there is no world outside of you

that i wanna be in, people
people(’ll) just freak me out, i want
no lending of advice or celebrations
'cause there is no life outside of you

key: a# mixolydian
tempo: 102 bpm
recorded: 1-25-2025 - 4-03-2025
fun fact: i came up with the riff on accident. it just happened to be in 5/4! very proud of myself.
good word: conflicting

the sun lets me know that it's noon at least
four conflicting times on the clock on my phone
i see your face in a crowd on a road
you sink in the heads and i try to take a step

all the sound cuts off
and i can't go back
it's always got to be
an unfulfilling end

you knock on my door and i sneak you inside
we hide in my room and i show you my things
it seems pretty real when i'm in the moment
you lean in real close and you start to whisper

then all the sound cuts off
and i can't go back
it's always got to be
an unfulfilling end
all the sound cuts off
and i can't go back
it's always got to be
an unfulfilling end

key: a# major
tempo: 129 bpm
recorded: 2-23-2025 - 7-26-2025
fun fact: i published this song soon on february 23 on fawm.org.
good word: pitiable

i have forfeited full mobility of my favorite arm
my right arm
though not all gone, little can effectively be done with my arm
my right arm

no party is responsible for my pitiable fate but me
i played the stupid game, fucked around and found out, and my prize is plain to see

i have forfeited full mobility of my favorite arm
my right arm
slow and weak like a sick sloth moves my feathery light arm
my right arm

i used to boast capability of motion in my favorite arm
my right arm
but that's a luxury now for my shamefully painfully tight arm
my right arm

i bear the brunt of the onus for what is a logical consequence
i sit head in hands on the wretched throne at the end of a list of events

i have forfeited full mobility of my favorite arm
my right arm
though not all gone, little can effectively be done with my arm
my right arm

i have forfeited full mobility of my favorite arm
my right arm
slow and weak like a sick sloth moves my feathery light arm
my right arm

key: d# mixolydian
tempo: 97 bpm
written: 2-20-2025
recorded: 4-26-2025 - 7-07-2025
fun fact: i composed the instrumental for an ill-fated collaboration with a fan.
good word: aspartame

galloping over rivers the names of which i no longer know
bearing my idiot grin that i never get tired to show

in a world with a god we'd be saved by a lightning bolt takin' 'em out
but he's a while for this world and a river of blood would be too handy now

steamers are nearer by day and it soon'll be time for the show
they've got all the time in the world to get their sitting ducks in a row

in a word with a god we'd be saved by a rainfall of sulfur and flames
but they're a while for this world and they're pilin' the aspartame high on their plates
we abandoned can only rely on the laws of succession to hold
when all the forests of peace have been cleared to keep affluent men from the cold

i love my land of the scab where a criminal jails all the pure

the ratings are amazing
kristallnacht has a real great ring
the ratings are amazing
blow them high

in a world with a god we'd be saved by a lightning bolt takin' 'em out
but he's a while for this world and a river of blood would be too gracious now
in a word with a god we'd be saved by a rainfall of sulfur and flames
but they're a while for this world and they're pilin' the aspartame high on their plates

the ratings are amazing
the ratings are amazing

key: c major
tempo: ~104 bpm
recorded: 5-19-2025 - 6-17-2025
good word: impersonally

my mom turned into a tree
she lives outside the elementary school
when i walk by she gives reminders to me
impersonally
because she's a tree

(i'll never get to hug her again)

key: f# major
tempo: unsteady, ~95 bpm
written: 3-16-2025 recorded: ?
good word: sewing

(two)

you were right to worry, i am scared
i don't know whether it's of or for you that i am scared
but i'm not turning back
not now
you were right to worry, i am disturbed
i've got that going for me, i suppose
but i'm getting out my sewing kit
anyway

no, i'm not turning back
i'm not turning back
no matter who tells me to
even if it's me or if it's you

key: b major
tempo: 177 bpm
written: 4-24-2025
recorded: 4-26-2025 - 8-9-2025
good word: czech

i'm about as polish as a rusted knife
my only english trait is being too polite
my only french is not to be repeated in your company
and the only irish thing about me is the way i say goodbye

i'm about as italian as a bowl of lo mein
tell me somethin' cherokee and i won't know what you're sayin'
the only kind of czech i do i just to see if something's new
and the only irish thing about me is the way i say goodbye

i don't have a lick of red in my hair
i don't have a fighting spirit and i'll never drink a beer
but oh boy howdy you should see how i can disappear

i don't have a lick of red in my hair
i don't have a fighting spirit and i'll never drink a beer
but oh boy howdy you should see how i can disappear

i'm about as polish as a rusted knife
my only english trait is being too polite
my only french is not to be repeated in your company
and the only irish thing about me is the way i say goodbye
yeah, the only irish thing about me is the way i say goodbye
yeah, the only irish thing about me is

music video!

key: b major
tempo: 111 bpm
written: 5-23-2025
recorded: 5-24-2025
good word: santa

i get tired quickly
there's nothing wrong with me
i just get tired quickly
there's nothing wrong with me

the time i have
to myself
is always wasted on enjoying the time i have
to myself
is always wasted on complaining that

i get tired quickly
there's nothing wrong with me
i just get tired quickly
there's nothing wrong with me

santa got
one of his toys
to pull the sleigh in rudolph's place
i cannot count
i don't know my ABCs
i just get tired easily

key: d major, c# major
tempo: ~104 bpm
recorded: 5-19-2025 - 6-17-2025
good word: birdy

is that a leaf or a birdy
keeping still in the middle of the sidewalk
making little nervous noises
there isn't any point in freezing
i'm the same one who told you you're everything to me
i'm never gonna hurt you baby finch
aren't you happy
aren't you happier with me

key: g# minor
tempo: 108 bpm
recorded: 7-31-2025
good word: dress

if being afraid keeps you down
be afraid, baby
if lacking confidence keeps you around
never decide, baby

i really need you down here
i really need you down here
i really need you down here
i want to dress your wounds
and only kind of get it right

key: a major
tempo: 110 bpm
written: 3-11-2025
recorded: 7-25-2025 - 7-26-2025
good word: fast

nice to meet you, my name is not adam or tom
my name's ben and it's never been anything else
i'm anchored fast to this shriveling shell of a man
i wish i could wish i was him but i can't

i wish i could rip off my skin and he'd be inside
but instead it would just be muscle and bones and i'd die
hero mallard, stay unchanged
and i'll stay far away from you

i can proudly say i've never done drugs in my life
'cause i don't want to not be me but i do but i don't
i just wish that the guy in the mirror i see
was exactly the same but that same was more pretty

i wish i could rip off my skin and he'd be inside
but instead it would just be muscle and bones and i'd die
hero mallard, stay unchanged
and i'll stay far away from you

key: b minor
tempo: 112 bpm
recorded: 12-28-2024 - 8-9-2025 (literally longer than the length of time on which i was working on the album lol)
good word: eunuch

making lists of things and holding myself
checking empty rooms and loathing myself
i'm so dirty you're so clean
i haven't done a thing you didn't see

having eunuch dreams and laying on my side
my drunk head imbibes greedily of your light
you're so lovely i'm so mean
i haven't done a thing you didn't see

you're not in my loading zone

do you think it's sexy when i waive my wellness
is it endearing when i worry myself sick
i'm so dirty you're so clean
i haven't done a thing you didn't see

key: f major
tempo: unsteady
recorded: 4-21-2025 - 7-30-2025
good word: pink

boy see girl
girl see boy
boy see angel girl
pink girl hurt all over
blue boy broken
pink girl can't be mended
blue boy don't want be

two hug
two hug
two hug

boy is smart
boy got very brain
girl is shy
girl got spiny brain
pink girl hurt all over
blue boy fine
pink girl can't be mended
blue say fine

two hug
two hug
two hug

the world was not made for me
the world was not made for you
but we were made for each other